Tuesday, January 12, 2010
this is the third time im blogging today, only because there's too much in my head right now.
please dont threaten suicide anymore, you have no idea how much that thought kills me. will you promise to think of me, in no matter what you do? it really pains to see you so stupid, so foolish, so upset. when you played violin back then, i threatened to do the same, do you remember ? the scars on your flesh.. your wounds.. they stab me right here.. so much more. because whatever happens, i feel for you, i feel you. and it hurts so badly i know, ive been there and done that. you're not the strongest person on earth i know, and i will protect you. but you cannot fall prey to foolish despair, it's too much for me to take. you must stand firm, stand tall, and sway only the slightest bit, for i will be there to mould you back. you know how much i love you.
It's a beautiful disguise.